So so much we could talk about but these are not our concerns today. We are concerned instead with this curious thing in
“When the man saw that he did not prevail against Jacob, he touched the hollow of his thigh; and Jacob’s thigh was put out of joint as he wrestled with him.” Who are those who prevail against the Lord? Against The Lord of Hosts?! Who are those against whom even God cannot prevail? Who will intercede so fervently that the Lord of Hosts says, “Leave me alone!” ? Who will be like the Roman centurion or the Syrophonecian woman? Who will weary the Lord like the widow wore down the unrighteous judge? Who will ask and weep and weep and ask year after year after year like Anna? Who?! God help me become like Jacob who believed. Let my end be greater than his. For as
When He seems to be darkness, believe He Is Light and pray. When He Is Angry with you, plead, plead for His Mercy for you believe His Mercy Endures Forever. Since Christ has died, and since His Blood reaches from creation to revelation, believe His Mercy Endures forever. If you have sinned like Eve and are cursed then plead with Him and ask Him to turn you into Mary the mother of Jesus Christ. Believe in Him, hold fast to Him, obey Him. Deny yourself of everything but Him and you will prevail against God. You will win Him over ... to His Side. Why should we fight against the world? Christ has already overcome the world
But how shall you know when the fight with God for God is nearly won? When the day is nearly done, the atmosphere paints the sky with streaks of purple and reds of many hues. What then is the sign by which you shall know that you have nearly prevailed in your struggle with God? You shall know when He cripples you. When through prayer, something breaks in your heart then you know that your fight is nearly won. For He cannot break you without blessing you. Nor can He bless you without breaking you. Only the pruned heart bears fruit
Now I do not mean broken the way the world means it. When the world speaks of brokenness, they often mean something like what happened to Jacob who was under-loved by his father, cheated by his father in law and running away from the brother he cheated. The world means you to believe that you are broken because somewhere somehow you have been hurt by something that happened to you either as a result of your sin or someone else’s sin. These are tragedies but they are not badges. They do not bring life or redemption. Instead, these worldly sorrows we endure become a great temptation towards pride which is despair.
The Death of Jesus Christ on the cross is The only Tragedy that transcends human history and yet by this Tragedy we are saved. Godly sorrow occurs when your tragedy encounters, collides with and abides in His Own. Biblical sorrow increases as you draw nearer to the cross. And when, like Jacob, your tragedy finally bows before His Tragedy then you will be broken. Become broken by laying down your tragedies, sorrows, joys and desires and taking up The Lord’s Joys, Sorrows, Desires and Tragedies
Jacob, even after being broken, did not stop fighting
What is this blank in your heart? What is this burning desire? Sometimes we pray and pray and then our heart feels broken and then we withdraw from prayer in despair. Sometimes we get weary waiting for the sunset. Sometimes we are weary, our strength flagging and we are barely clutching the hem of His Garment. There was once a woman who discovered first in faith and then in healing that merely touching the hem of His Garment is enough for the bargain
But it was more than enough. Enough to make Jesus say, “Someone touched me for I felt power go out from me.”
Earlier, we spoke about being broken by the Lord as laying down our sorrows, joys and desires while taking up His Own. Our hearts break when we lay down our hearts in the pursuit of His Heart. And when in the midst of pursuing, wrestling, waiting, praying, The Lord hears you weeping with Godly sorrow, it sounds to Him like the crying of His baby. He does not send His angels. He Rushes to your side. He Comforts you. He Gives you your heart’s desire. Once upon a time both your heart and your desire were ungodly. Even the seemingly innocuous request of wanting a child without truly wanting the child for God is ungodly. But now through faith and prayer, you have wrestled with God. Your heart has been broken and your desires purified. Now He Will Bless you with your pure heart’s pure desire.
Welcome to the heavenly game between The Father and His child. There will be chasing, wrestling, waiting and praying. But this game is rigged because all the children who play are strengthened by The Father. Little children play games because games are fun but these games help them grow and learn. The games spiritual children play with their Father are also fun enough to carry the weight of eternity. The birth, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ was foretold in the name Jacob won in a rigged wrestling match. All who overcome The Lord receive a name. “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who conquers I will give some of the hidden manna, and I will give him a white stone, with a new name written on the stone which no one knows except him who receives it.” (Revelations 2:17)
So ask. Only when you feel what God Is Feeling can you bargain with Him for a blessing. Only when you know His Nature and Need can you pull the Hannah and offer Him your Samuel. Like Jacob who believed, refuse to let Him go till He Blesses you. And when He Blesses you, you will discover that The Lord Is The Blessing. You see, Jacob’s father Isaac, Jacob’s new name “Israel” is an Eternal Joke. Israel means “God Prevails”. The Bible says that Jacob wrestled with God and prevailed. Yet God changed Jacob’s name to “God Prevails”. Again we see the joy of the Lord amidst the sorrows and tragedies of sin. Like a father wrestling with his child, God Declares, “I win!” Full of Sorrow, while His Son, Jesus “The Wrestler” Christ is suffering, dying, dead on the cross, the earth trembles, the sky goes dark and God Joyfully, Gleefully Declares, “It is finished. I win!”
Do you now see that you can only win God over when He Wins you Over? We can only prevail over God when God Prevails over us. Only the broken are blessed. All the blessed are broken. Like Jacob lifted up, broken and blessed, like the Bread of Life lifted up, blessed and broken to feed 3000, 5000, many, let God lift you up, bless you and break you.